I am responsible for my own happiness. Although this may seem trivial and obvious, I often find myself unhappy because I struggle to accept the things I cannot have. Life takes options away from us, and possibilities fade. New paths come into view, and old choices become viable again. Buttercups become oak trees.
Apple Vision Pro hubbub
All the reviews I’ve seen are mixed. From my perspective that’s expected for any tech product, especially a version 1.0 (brand new OS, brand new hardware). This isn’t a company iterating a smart phone into a new generation. This is technology exploring the unexplored. The big problem with the Vision Pro is the same for everyone. The price won’t let us temper our expectations and accept its version one flaws as we would with other devices that were moving the bar like this one. I’m still seeing a level of excitement in reviews and on podcasts that is surprising. Some of my tech pundits are extremely critical by nature and they are blowing bubbles out their noses in amazement when they describe their experiences.
40 years of Macintosh
Thursday (January 25, 2024) was the 40th birthday of the Apple Macintosh computer. So much of what makes our PC experience what it is today belongs to that moment.
[Insanely Great: The Apple Mac at 40](https://www.youtube.com/live/Vl__10euTRo?si=g4gB9K372VFsAcNq)
The first Mac I ever used was an Apple Macintosh 512ke with an Apple Hard Disk 20 in the Mathematics lab at the University of Tennessee at Martin. I used MacWrite, MacPaint, Microsoft MultiPlan, and Klondike.
If you could go back in time…
In the past 4 years I’ve gone down this road a thousand times, searching for one thing, or any combination of one things I could have done or not done that might have prevented my son’s suicide. It’s part of processing trauma, and perhaps a requisite for moving forward, but in the end, it’s just shouting at windmills. For me, once I look up at the spinning blades and the clouds behind them I just long for one more moment with my son; the closure I cannot have.
Vision Pro oversharing
I’d love to tell everyone on Mastodon: “I don’t care why you are or are not buying a Vision Pro today. Get back to the stuff I follow you for.”
New Year’s Surprise
It took me a whole year to finish the last one. Now you tell me I have *another* year to deal with?
Making up reality
I’m like the hypothetical fly that gets caught in a literal fly trap.
Solitude for Christmas
When the holiday Christmas and a solitary person meet each other on the street, they struggle finding a common reference point. Christmas isn’t something you do alone. Some would say that’s a view that fails to acknowledge the religious significance of the holiday, but I *do* believe, and Jesus isn’t coming for Christmas dinner. I wish all of us facing the holiday alone the peace to accept ourselves as reason enough to celebrate. Bless you all.
Thirty-Four
Thirty-four. That’s how old you would be today. My mind and my heart are having an engaged conversation about what kind of person you would be. I’ve been playing our album this morning, the concert we attended at the Coca-Cola Roxy Theatre on Monday, October 29, 2007. I miss you.
Wisdom
I am better at recognizing wisdom when it doesn’t apply to my weaknesses.
Approaching Zero 